The Action Plan

So my wife and I fought and argued last night, and found ourselves rather sadden by the fact that after knowing each other for 8 years now I have still not overcome my avoidance personality disorder. Of course, when we first met I had no idea of what APD was, let alone how to overcome it. Nor did I realize how deeply the poor habits developed from living with APD for over two decades were engrained in me, and causing me hardship.  To make a long story short, I fought anxiety, depression, and loneliness for years, thinking that these things were the root cause of my troubles. Little did I know that APD was the root. The other things, even though I took different medications, visited with several therapists, and jumped from friend to friend and sought companionship to no avail, were only symptoms. Now with much more clarity, wisdom, and my extraordinary wife in my corner, I have found the courage, albeit shaky at times, to take massive action to combat APD. This is a seriously difficult journey, given my own bad habits of placating to APD undermine me at every other turn. However, I see and feel much hope. Last night my wife was so fed up that she laid out the follow Massive Action Plan for me to combat APD head on...

"HOW TO FIGHT APD AND WIN!"

Daily:
1. Read my wife's expectations
2. Read communication rules (see rules below)
3. Write about each relapse (this is partly what caused me to create this blog tonight)
4. Prioritize personal time
5. Make time for friends
6. Read affirmations, create affirmations and update as needed
7. Meditate after work

Weekly:
1. Take acting classes
2. Seek therapy
3. Join Toastmasters
4. Volunteer